what was, what wasn't, what?

blissfully blown away by fatigue and chocolate milk, coconut milk and nestles hot chocolate mix (for lack of any other chocolate) but cold it does not dissolve well and i want cold so i did and slightly grainy but deliciously different nonetheless cuz coconut milk mixed with skim milk and a touch of extra sugar and exploding brain cells encourage bubbling energy that so wants to bounce off walls in spite of the physical body wishing for blind sleep so deep the brain stops (never happened before except during a few blackouts at the hands of alcohol and there was no pleasantness afterward so i don't go back there) and so here i am bobble-head sitting typing racing in slow motion wishing for more and someone who might begin to understand and keep up and kiss the chocolate me...

sex would be good now...

and so he thought

and so he thought that everything he said could be understood by anyone who cared enough to want to understand enough to really listen and pay attention and become part of the conversation because that is what he always did and it worked for him when he wanted it to enough...

my kingdom for...

there i was sitting on the plastic throne
porcelean just got too expensive, you know?
thinking about all the plastic i own
and wondering why i just don't go
if life is worth living like this
in a plastic house making plastic piss
then i wonder if this was god's plan
have you any ideas old man?

i will leave you with this thought tonight
maybe you can help me understand
is the world what we think or what we do?
is this anything that anyone planned?
what makes anything what it really is
is how how we see it or how we treat it?
what is your opinion of nature and the earth
are we hear to love it or to defeat it?

i will leave you with this thought tonight
maybe you can help me understand
just what is this world to you?
is it paradise or a garbage can