and so he thought

and so he thought that everything he said could be understood by anyone who cared enough to want to understand enough to really listen and pay attention and become part of the conversation because that is what he always did and it worked for him when he wanted it to enough...

my kingdom for...

there i was sitting on the plastic throne
porcelean just got too expensive, you know?
thinking about all the plastic i own
and wondering why i just don't go
if life is worth living like this
in a plastic house making plastic piss
then i wonder if this was god's plan
have you any ideas old man?

i will leave you with this thought tonight
maybe you can help me understand
is the world what we think or what we do?
is this anything that anyone planned?
what makes anything what it really is
is how how we see it or how we treat it?
what is your opinion of nature and the earth
are we hear to love it or to defeat it?

i will leave you with this thought tonight
maybe you can help me understand
just what is this world to you?
is it paradise or a garbage can

trust

somewhere it was written:

everything in this world is so skewed by human judgments, by preconceptions of right and wrong, how can anyone have a clearly objective perspective or understanding of anything?...

so do i choose to be alone, intimately, not trusting unconditionally, intimately, because i do not trust others because everything in this world is so skewed by human judgments, by preconceptions of right and wrong that are not always based on logic or instinct and are sometimes based on irrational delusions, logic suggests that no one could have a clearly objective perspective or understanding of anything and without that, no one's judgment can be trusted, which is the basis for most, if not all, decision and actions, so purely logically, no one's actions can be trusted, so no one can be trusted...

so the question for me, or anyone accepting the above logic as true, is how to get past this obvious logic to actually attempt to physically trust another human enough to actually develop an intimate physical relationship beyond momentary sexual contact...

i believed i found the answer a few times, but being alone again might point to an error in that belief as the relationships did not continue...

chocolate thoughts are not always fun, aye?...

but it usually is :)